May 2, 2011

Anxious, Excited, Nervous, Scared.

That is currently how I feel right now. It is now May...MAY. Where has the year gone? Didn't it JUST turn 2011. Actually I swear it was just 2010. In fact, I swear I just found out I was pregnant in October of 2010. Now here we are, seven months later. I can safely say that Liam will be here next month. NEXT MONTH. I can't believe it! I don't think I am ready yet. We still have some stuff to buy, I need to get in the mental state of the fact that we will actually be parents next month, that he will be here and I will actually be in labor. Granted, I hope he comes around his due date but we will see how his plans go. He is due June 17th. However, my mind will be set to be ready starting June 1st in case he decides to come early. I definitely don't see him coming to this world this month because I haven't had any problems. Although, life springs things on you last minute so who knows. If he DOES want to be late, Father's day would be pretty awesome haha. All I want is him to be healthy. Part of me is scared because I always wonder if I will be a good mother. Labor in general scares me. Not really the pain aspect (well, ok I lied - partly does) but more the fact that it will be my duty to bring him into our world. I plan on NOT having a c-section and I am hoping I don't have to. I would rather do it naturally. C-sections don't scare me, it's the fact that you can't see what is going on, the fact that they hold up the baby and quickly snatch them away. I just like the idea of doing it naturally and then being able to hold him while he is cleaned off, to instantly get that bonding effect. I just hope everything goes smoothly. Sometimes it is even hard for me to believe he is even in my belly to speak, let alone the fact that he will be here NEXT month.

This has been going through my mind daily now. Don't get me wrong, I am more than excited. It is just all so new and overwhelming to me.


  1. I didn't know you had a blog!!

    Since I don't get on MIG much, and I get on here more. I'm definitely going to follow you here. I can't wait for updates on Liam! I can't believe he will be here next month!

  2. I am so following your blog!!! EEEKKK!!! I am a total stalker!

  3. Hahaha glad to see you two following. I'll try not to make it too boring ;)


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